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Menu, Week of 4/14 (with a side of sadness)


I am really struggling with grief here still. I really think it is a failing of our culture that people expect death and grief to only be a brief blip in your life–a week off to attend the funeral, be sad, then get back to normal. Everything is not normal. Even though my grandmother was very old and her death wasn’t entirely unexpected, I am really having a hard time getting back in the swing of things. (Hence, Menu Plan Monday on Tuesday…)

In a way, it is made worse by the fact that losing her was somewhat expected–we started spending more time with her, as much as we could. In one sense, this is awesome–I don’t have regrets, she knew we loved her, and she got to see me crocheting, which brought her a lot of happiness and satisfaction. But on the other hand, the change of her being gone is even more profound. Planning my week makes me sad, because it reminds me I don’t have to plan around our visits.

However, life goes on, as everyone knows. School activities keep on taking up our evenings, expenses keep coming up that make me want to limit our food budget (5th grade camp and new cheerleading uniform expenses are the big ones this month…), and those darn kids still want to eat every day. And, now that I wouldn’t mind leaning back on the occasional fast food meal, my kids suddenly have taken everything I have tried to teach them about eating  and nutrition to heart and they tell me they don’t want that, they want the healthy food I cook for them, ;). I guess that is good, something is sticking. We all want to have some normalcy, too.

Sunday: We ate McDonald’s after coming back from a weekend trip (more on that later)

Monday: Shrimp and langostino risotto with asparagus and peas
I took my dog outside and discovered some asparagus growing in my garden! Hooray!

Tuesday: It is foursquare day, so I am meeting up with some local foursquare people at Urban Eats

Wednesday: Salmon noodle casserole, steamed broccoli
The kids love it and it is easy to make.

Thursday: Peanut Coconut Curry Chicken, brown rice/quinoa
I seem to be incapable of making plain rice or plain quinoa these days.

Friday: leftovers

Saturday: Out with a friend or leftovers

See a lot more menu ideas at orgjunkie.com


Days ???: Comforting Myself


Three weeks ago today, my grandmother died.

She was in the hospital for 6 days before that, and I spent a lot of time there with her and the extended family. If you have ever spent that kind of time in a hospital, you know it has a lot of down time. My cousins, my aunt, my mom, my brother, various friends and extended family–we all spent a lot of time in conversation, sharing our memories of my grandma, but there was still plenty of time to fill. And really, one of the things I like about crocheting is that I can do many projects while chatting with others. On top of that, crocheting seemed the perfect activity for comforting myself as we watched my grandmother die, since it is something I shared with her.

I made excellent progress on two blankets, including one that I have since finished and donated to the high school Parents Club auction that was held this past weekend. Here is a picture of the auction goodies in place:

auction stuffAfter I took this picture I noticed some ends that needed to be worked in and took care of that, but I think they mostly look good. The border on the blanket is one row of single crochet and one row of crab stitch. I really liked the effect of the crab stitch–it gave a definitely finished look without adding too much bulk. The lot did not sell for a very high amount, I don’t think, but there were multiple bids, and there were many items to bid on, so I am just happy to have contributed.

I have many other things that I worked on in the past month or so–I did not stop trying to make something every day for the most part, although the days of the visitation and funeral were pretty much a bust–but I am not going back to document everything. Almost everything I made was a work in progress, not counting a few new recipes I tried out, so a lot of the projects will come up in future posts.  Also, this focus on making things every day has really clarified my process for me–I don’t really like to complete something in one day. It is possible that at some future time I could come up with a specific project that involves concentrated making in one sitting, but for a lot of things I prefer the perspective I get from at least one night’s sleep during the process, if not several days when I am working on something else in between. So, I don’t plan to stop making time every day for creativity, but at this point I am expecting lots and lots of in progress days, and that is okay with me. I think it is very important to love the process anyway.